Derivatives of my life

Where did all February go?

It came as quick as June rain and ended faster like a blink of an eye. Everything seemed to be fast paced  except my mouth to be fully mobilized. Two weeks have passed since the braces where removed and haven't been to my dentist for my check up and some operations caused by that dreaded December accident.

Today, supposed to be my off from work but were asked to report. Rest Day OT and everything is just acting up not so well-- checked our QA report for last week and I have 3 valid autofails. I just can't get over the fact that we always slip on small things. I'd rather work on something bigger rather than spend my energy fighting over little things that were supposed to be easy fixed.

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At Work.

Client Visit. Performance management for non-performing agents. I have 2 agents go on LOI for another department to save their jobs. Coping on our stats. Working on our QA. Pretty much challenging not the usual week. All is well. Everything will be okey.

Team of the Month. January 2013. PV1.

Eye Baggage? Who does not have? We worked hard and earned a decent living from them. Cheers to more cups of coffee!

Back Row: (L-R)Fercy.Neil.Solenn.Hazel.Noeme.Mona.Lea.Alex.Mon.Dikki
Front Row: (L-R)Nelvie.Raich.Me.Marge
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On Personal Note.

I still get insecure no matter how much and hard I try to psyched myself up and stay positive.
I came accross this great verse:

1 Samuel 16:7b
"People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."

And it revived me. So right and timely.

Thursday.

I was a little anxious after I held a huddle to my team, I guess I've embodied a lot of Carrie Bradshow attitude that I became so upfront and straight forward. I might have hurt them, emotionally. I've realized that to where I live it doesn't work that way. But, a girl go to do what a girl got do. It is better to tell the truth than lie and talk behind their back. I care for honest people. I love those who are willing to accept their mistakes and are more than willing to learn and let go.

Yes, it's how you say it. But sometimes no matter how you say it some does not take any criticism. According to Reader's Digest (I've read this years back) something like cristisms would only be constructive to someone saying it.

And inspite of my inability to chew 100% still I rewarded myself for a sumptous lunch at Max's with J. And this is my real meal for since December 30, 2012. I was so full. Life after Death. Haha!

Did I mention that I think I have a hidden talent in cooking? =)

I already know how to:

1. Cook red spaghetti (those with hotdogs and ground pork)
2. Corned beef with sliced patatas

to add to my Sinigang!

And I will be purchasing cookbooks too! I wandered at National Bookstore and saw this Mamasita's book... i think I will get one. Just need to learn the basics first. =)

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And this month running I'm already on my 4th book.

The Fault In Our Stars by John Green; The Carrie Diaries and Summer and The City both by Candace Bushnell.

Atleast I'm catching up to the life of Carrie Bradshaw and friends, another proof of my being late bloomer. Happy and Proud to be One!

Sun, Sand and Sea

After this crisis...all I want to be is be near the sun, sand and salty sea...

Mirror...Mirror...

There will come a time that no matter how you cultivate your positive energies they still are not enough to make you feel better.

Insecurities will still hover all over you.

All those years of digging over self-help books and magazines are of no help. Part of these learnings would want to burst from your reserved memories but the present reality will kill them just enough. No matter how hard you try feel all the good vibes---when you look at the mirror--you will just have that biggest sigh.

I feel so negative and down today. I don't feel beautiful at all. Sad.

Can we just drag the days to move faster?

I want this over.

I Heart You

Happy Valentine's day!

Everyone is going crazy on how to celebrate this day. Happy are those in love and requited. I am happy for you keep the love burning and make Christ as the center of everything. For those who are still waiting, make your time count and be the best person you can be. Love yourself first- that's the greatest gift of all.

I am blessed to have J.

Words are not enough to tell how grateful I am for you being always there for me- I am in count in spending more Valentine's day with you. May we grow old together- happy and healthy.
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Saturday.

Finally, may braces were removed. Freedom from the elastics. That was 6 weeks of straw feeding. But I do not complain. Okey...yes a little. But all's well that ends well. I'm not yet fully recovered. As of this writing I'm on soft-diet. I still can't chew and can hardly open my mouth. It will take maybe a week or two to fully mobilized. Ending, I still can't go to the dentist. I have to endure this. hay...life. But I'm psyching up myself to be okey and not be shy. Aja Ailynette! You can do this. This too shall pass.

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I took two days off from work and just stayed home and played a role of an old housewife less the tea party of a leisured woman. I am proud for all the mamas that devoted their whole life taking care of their family! Selfless and genuine- mother's love.

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Sunday.

J's 28th birthday celebration. He had a whole day of 2W training and went home with certificate of completion. Since I'm still on a special diet- dining out is not an option. I instead cooked sinigang, the only dish i know to prepare and clean after all my mess. We enjoyed his birthday cake over a cup of coffee while watching TV. I just love this boy- so simple and easy to please.
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Life has too much drama already- we have to be selective on what we feed our minds.