Derivatives of my life

Where did all February go?

It came as quick as June rain and ended faster like a blink of an eye. Everything seemed to be fast paced  except my mouth to be fully mobilized. Two weeks have passed since the braces where removed and haven't been to my dentist for my check up and some operations caused by that dreaded December accident.

Today, supposed to be my off from work but were asked to report. Rest Day OT and everything is just acting up not so well-- checked our QA report for last week and I have 3 valid autofails. I just can't get over the fact that we always slip on small things. I'd rather work on something bigger rather than spend my energy fighting over little things that were supposed to be easy fixed.

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At Work.

Client Visit. Performance management for non-performing agents. I have 2 agents go on LOI for another department to save their jobs. Coping on our stats. Working on our QA. Pretty much challenging not the usual week. All is well. Everything will be okey.

Team of the Month. January 2013. PV1.

Eye Baggage? Who does not have? We worked hard and earned a decent living from them. Cheers to more cups of coffee!

Back Row: (L-R)Fercy.Neil.Solenn.Hazel.Noeme.Mona.Lea.Alex.Mon.Dikki
Front Row: (L-R)Nelvie.Raich.Me.Marge
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On Personal Note.

I still get insecure no matter how much and hard I try to psyched myself up and stay positive.
I came accross this great verse:

1 Samuel 16:7b
"People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."

And it revived me. So right and timely.

Thursday.

I was a little anxious after I held a huddle to my team, I guess I've embodied a lot of Carrie Bradshow attitude that I became so upfront and straight forward. I might have hurt them, emotionally. I've realized that to where I live it doesn't work that way. But, a girl go to do what a girl got do. It is better to tell the truth than lie and talk behind their back. I care for honest people. I love those who are willing to accept their mistakes and are more than willing to learn and let go.

Yes, it's how you say it. But sometimes no matter how you say it some does not take any criticism. According to Reader's Digest (I've read this years back) something like cristisms would only be constructive to someone saying it.

And inspite of my inability to chew 100% still I rewarded myself for a sumptous lunch at Max's with J. And this is my real meal for since December 30, 2012. I was so full. Life after Death. Haha!

Did I mention that I think I have a hidden talent in cooking? =)

I already know how to:

1. Cook red spaghetti (those with hotdogs and ground pork)
2. Corned beef with sliced patatas

to add to my Sinigang!

And I will be purchasing cookbooks too! I wandered at National Bookstore and saw this Mamasita's book... i think I will get one. Just need to learn the basics first. =)

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And this month running I'm already on my 4th book.

The Fault In Our Stars by John Green; The Carrie Diaries and Summer and The City both by Candace Bushnell.

Atleast I'm catching up to the life of Carrie Bradshaw and friends, another proof of my being late bloomer. Happy and Proud to be One!

Sun, Sand and Sea

After this crisis...all I want to be is be near the sun, sand and salty sea...

Mirror...Mirror...

There will come a time that no matter how you cultivate your positive energies they still are not enough to make you feel better.

Insecurities will still hover all over you.

All those years of digging over self-help books and magazines are of no help. Part of these learnings would want to burst from your reserved memories but the present reality will kill them just enough. No matter how hard you try feel all the good vibes---when you look at the mirror--you will just have that biggest sigh.

I feel so negative and down today. I don't feel beautiful at all. Sad.

Can we just drag the days to move faster?

I want this over.

I Heart You

Happy Valentine's day!

Everyone is going crazy on how to celebrate this day. Happy are those in love and requited. I am happy for you keep the love burning and make Christ as the center of everything. For those who are still waiting, make your time count and be the best person you can be. Love yourself first- that's the greatest gift of all.

I am blessed to have J.

Words are not enough to tell how grateful I am for you being always there for me- I am in count in spending more Valentine's day with you. May we grow old together- happy and healthy.
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Saturday.

Finally, may braces were removed. Freedom from the elastics. That was 6 weeks of straw feeding. But I do not complain. Okey...yes a little. But all's well that ends well. I'm not yet fully recovered. As of this writing I'm on soft-diet. I still can't chew and can hardly open my mouth. It will take maybe a week or two to fully mobilized. Ending, I still can't go to the dentist. I have to endure this. hay...life. But I'm psyching up myself to be okey and not be shy. Aja Ailynette! You can do this. This too shall pass.

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I took two days off from work and just stayed home and played a role of an old housewife less the tea party of a leisured woman. I am proud for all the mamas that devoted their whole life taking care of their family! Selfless and genuine- mother's love.

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Sunday.

J's 28th birthday celebration. He had a whole day of 2W training and went home with certificate of completion. Since I'm still on a special diet- dining out is not an option. I instead cooked sinigang, the only dish i know to prepare and clean after all my mess. We enjoyed his birthday cake over a cup of coffee while watching TV. I just love this boy- so simple and easy to please.
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Life has too much drama already- we have to be selective on what we feed our minds.

Soon it'll be over and done.

Today marks my 4th week of straw feeding! Such a feat Ailynette! God is mighty, He made me able to surpass everything. There were days that I still feel sad but through prayers I am able to overcame my fears and disppointments. Life went as it is. Once every week I have to go to my doctor to check my improvements and change the elastics and to allow me to brush my teeth and tongue. Hehe! But of course I do brush daily. Gradually, slowly, with a slow left-right-left-right glide and then a power gargle of Betadine. There were mouth sores because of the arch but Betadine can heal the sores fast so I do not worry much. I actually made a pact not to worry and not to literally count the days. Just let it go and slide. This too shall pass. And two weeks left! Way to go!
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January 24.

My sister Ven flew to Australia to be with her husband Mike. I will surely miss her and how she takes care of me and J. I pray for them to have good time and for great memories to fill the memory box of their marriage and in God's willing...a bouncing baby girl or boy too!

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As promised.

This month I finished two books. Stieg Larrson's The Girl Who Played with Fire and The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest.

Then I started reading Life of Pi after few pages I decided to wait a bit and not to force myself into this book. Will instead  finish The Fault In Our Stars by John Green.

But for two days now Candy Crush is taking much of my time. This is not good. Focus Ailynette. But this game is addictive...time management maybe?
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I am just proud to share that since we moved to our new office address I have not been late eversince! Big smile!

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January 15.

Vonage Outbound on its 7th year! I am a proud member of this family. I joined Vonage when its just 4 months old. Barely moving and still on breast feeding. Haha! I saw it grow from enfant to toddler and now 7 years? Wow! To God Be The Glory and I want to be bold in asking these prayers. Lord, give us seven more successful and productive years! Amen.

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Two Important Lessons Learned and Applied this month:

1. The wheel of life will not going to stop to wait for you to catch up.
2. Is is not about YOU.

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I'm looking forward for a best February!

IIIII-II

Today I just have to cut my hair short and paint my nails blue.

I become so sad all of a sudden and I just need to do something to make myself happy.

I went to the hospital this morning for my follow up but the doctor is not in, I have to go back on Tuesday.

I prayed intently to cut the time short that I need to feed through straw. My problem is not as big as world peace...but I pity myself when they're not smoothies and fruit shakes.

I asked Him to give me strength and to sustain me physically and emotionally. I know all things are possible through Christ. I just have to ask and this will be given.

Counting the days...when I can have fried chicken again.

=)

My heart is soft...so as my diet...

Happy New Year!

Blogging from VRP Room 804.

Yup, I welcomed 2013 looking out the window and enjoying fireworks display at the hospital.

I had an accident last year! Dec 29 and is rushed to the hospital. I faint and really passed out.

I've done with the series of tests like mandible and chest xray, CT scan (brain and mandible), ECG, 2D echo and underwent 2nd level operation for my mandible. Doctors found through my mandible xrays..dislocation and they have done inter mandibular maxillary fixation. So for 6 weeks I will be with braces and cannot open my mouth, I will be too on a strict soft diet and cannot talk as I normally do. My mouth are clenched and talk ing is tedious. After 6 weeks and when these arch bars be removed from my mouth I will undergo rehabilitation to practice normal chewing, talking and all the functions of my mandibles.

I don't know how to put this on a better perspective. Maybe better than my roommate (i'm on a semi-private) who paid more than 400k pesos on her operation; a fine and strong woman; she slipped on her way down their car and had a hip replacement. I admire her courage and determination and on how she is loved by her family. I pray for her fast recovery and more graceful years to add on her really colorful life.

Continuing at home...

Just got home today. I had a long bath and it was really refreshing. I need that badly after my 5 day stay at room 804. I was just wondering...why I do not have that "patient bracelet?"

I don't want to complain now. What's done is done. And things do not just happen. They happen for some reasons.

There were times that I would come to blame myself for what happened and sometimes you for some specific reasons that are legitimate but really were not. Yes, there is this part of my brain soliciting these ideas. But I will contradict myself- there is no one to blame- this is purely an accident.

I had my operation. I will suffer for 6 weeks soft diet- i cannot talk (much)- i cannot laugh, I can smile- life goes on! After this...next step. One at a time.

I know you know how excited I was for Peng's wedding. I've been talking about it for months...ending I was at the hospital on her wedding day. We made plans for NYE and there I was at room 804 sitting on my bed and enjoying the free fireworks display as far as my eyes can see.

I will pass two bottles now.

Plans for 2013 will still push through. This is just a test. Now I can tell- I blame no one.

I thank J and my sister Ven for being always there for me, they gave me strength and courage to go on and see the positive side of the story.

In memory of Room 804. Sketched by Nanay's son-in-law to her daughter Nora.

A view from my room- where I had an ocean access to have a free fireworks display on NYE. Life still is beautiful. =)

Thank you also for paying me a visit.

For my thoughtful college friends. You guys are simply the best, I love the magazines you gave. And yes...I'm jealous of your Potipot detour! Hmmp! =) And Joiz- the dress just perfectly fit!

and now...to end this...my heart is soft...so as my diet!

and boi...I am just hungry.